disappearing through the silence

I hated being selfish so much I stopped sharing myself with others.
I really speak to no one.
It doesn’t bother me until I think of death. How would anyone find out what happened to me?
Who would notify anyone? How long would it be until someone noticed?
Beyond thinking about the health concerns I have now.. I’m just aging and time will be up one day.
I think I’ll be alone, I think it will take days, if not weeks for anyone to know.
I feel like people who matter to me or who would want to know won’t just because no one will know who to contact. While I know it would make people sad, I feel I’ve been so distant that it wouldn’t really make an impact.
I feel pressure.
& I feel alone.

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